[That contact - a silent affirmation, a gesture of sympathy and compassion - does help once again. She manages to get her crying under control, at least enough to speak comprehensively without sobbing.]

I didn't want any of this to happen. I just wanted to...

[She shakes her head. She wanted to free her people - but it was only once she inherited the power to do so that she understood why she couldn't possibly go ahead with it, not without dooming the rest of the world to subjugation again. Even without explaining those convoluted details to Sunny, she at least wants to clarify that it's not mere cowardice that's making her consider taking the Ferryman's offer.]

If I could undo all the suffering, I'd pay any price - all my body parts, all my senses, even staying in my worst nightmarey forever. But if I can't, then... then remembering it for the rest of eternity is the worst punishment I can imagine., all the more if it doesn't help anybody.